What’s on the other end of the “Am I Crazy??” Experiences?

Here we go- the sequel to Freedom + Expansion: The Terrifying Gifts of Spiritual and Existential Crisis!

Find out in Part A what it’s been like since I felt pieces of my existence shatter, the way my bladder was screaming, how I transformed pain into wisdom and revealed the mysteries behind my symptoms, sorting and clearing the ancestral and collective energies that came up, and the actual gifts + magic that I’ve received on the other end.

Part B, Soul and Body Support, is all for you! I’ve had many listeners ask for more meditations and guided experiences for healing. In four segments that you can use at your own pace, I guide you through:

  • Soothing self-touch and grounding your body into safety
  • Immersing yourself in an imaginary Healing Sanctuary for deeper release
  • Talking and listening to your body using the language of the body, love, to learn the wisdom beneath your body symptoms
  • Using your story of your physical and emotional symptoms as a tool to explore deeper into the soul’s messages

These can help anyone find deeper healing, grounding, and self-love.

 

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Sponsorship Message

This episode is brought to you by the Soul Body Women’s Retreat in October 2018. This is a spiritual and healing retreat inspired to support connecting Soul and Body with lots of love and playfulness!

In this retreat, we connect the elements of Earth and Sky within, Feminine and Masculine, and all of the opposing energies within. It is a sacred intensive of meditations, yoga, family constellations, somatic healing, and soul work to deeply heal stuckness, beliefs, or ancestral bonds and embody freedom and specific personal intentions. For this and future retreats, you can find out more information on CandiceWu.com/retreats.

Your support in sharing this or joining a retreat helps me make more healing albums, content, and create more podcast episodes. I am grateful for your support!

 

Show Notes 

00:00 Intro & Welcome

00:51 Thank You to My Listeners!

01:24 Sponsored Message: Soul Body Women’s Retreat

02:47 Let’s Get to It

02:53 Mention of the Episode: The Terrifying Gifts... & Short Recap

04:15 What I Talk About in This Episode

Part A

04:34 What I Experienced Since Last Time

05:01 What Is Sharing Too Much?

05:38 Released Some of the Shame, It's More Important to Share

05:53 Disclaimer for TMI

06:11 Urinary Tract Infection / Wildfire

07:15 Mention of Game of Thrones: Daenerys’ Blazing Fire Dragons

07:47 Anger! Anger! Anger!

08:31 Past Life Coming: Shaman or Witch

09:24 Heat in My Bladder Matching the Climate in Bali

10:04 Anger Shifting

11:07 The Females in My Chinese Lineage

11:35 Feminine Power & Room for Masculine

12:31 Forceful Syncing With My Body’s Timing

13:23 What I was Embarrassed By

14:15 What Spiritual Crises Is Really About

15:16 “If There Isn’t a Spiritual Place for Dis-Ease, There Wouldn’t Be a Physical One.”

16:29 What Have I Gained? Why Not Just a Quick Fix?

17:26 I Get to Define Who I Am...

18:02 Cleaning Your Home & Soul

20:05 Making a Mess Before the Clean

20:36 A New Draw to My Intuition

21:10 A Loving Message to My Bladder

Part B

21:32 Body and Soul Support

22:10 First Exercise [6 Min]: Grounding, Self-Touch and Feeling Into Your Safety Right Now

28:14 Second Exercise [4 Min]: Healing Sanctuary

32:09 Third Exercise [5 Min]: Inner Listening

37:16 Fourth Exercise [3 Min]: Physical Symptoms Word Play

40:30 End of Part B

41:33 Sponsored Message

41:59 Sendoff

 

 

I’ve found that when I share what’s true in the moment, there is so much ALIVENESS and fullness in me.

That’s why I started the the *A{Live} Now* mini-series, which is within the Embody Podcast. This is the first episode and I intend to share what’s happening in my real life and in my inner world, what’s truly full and *alive* now.

What’s alive now in me has often been what’s filled the juicy stuff of life: themes, joys, or challenges that others may also be experiencing, a fear and other emotions that bring me to the edge of my fullest expression in the moment.

As you listen, I will also share snippets of how you can support your own heart and soul, know yourself, be your fullest, or heal and love yourself.

In this episode, I share a vulnerable experience of fear around financially continuing my podcast, the beliefs around investing in myself that came up and and how I healed them with forgiveness, as well as how I was touched by feedback from a listener, and what made me burst into tears around Avicii’s death.

I invite you to join in your own inner knowing and vulnerability around investing in yourself, forgiveness, and what your body and soul know you need as well!

 

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Show Notes & Timestamps

00:00 Intro - a New Mini-Series

01:06 Multiple Meanings of a{Live} Now

01:46 This Moment: Filled With Emotions & Complex

02:26 Synchronicity in Healing

03:13 What's Alive Right Now in Me

04:04 The Fear Thread & Eye Opening Experience

04:56 An Hour of No Sleep

05:46 Sitting and Talking to the Fear of Not Feeling Worthy

06:40 Unearthing What Will Reveal Itself

07:45 A Deep Realization

08:15 Going In (Grief + Forgiveness)

09:22 Feeling Renewed

09:42 The Contrast of My Partner’s Story

10:29 Explore How You Invest in Yourself

11:03 Gratitude for My Listeners

13:03 Oh! - The [Podcast Episode](https://candicewu.com/spiritual-and-existential-crisis/) I’m Talking About…

13:30 Thank You So for Your Notes!

13:57 The Feedback That Helps Me Continue

14:41 The Death of Avicii & A Mirror For Myself

17:55 What Are You Needing? Checking in With Yourself

18:57 What Do You Want to Bring Forgiveness Around? How is the World Affecting You?

19:28 Outro

 

Holly and I come from the same beautiful lineage of young women who opened themselves to the rigor and learning of inner motivation, persistence, and responsibility, hard work, and dedication, who have poured their hearts and souls into a team effort: high school competitive cheerleading team at Rochester High School. We met years after both of us graduated, as we are both cheerleaders in another way to our selves and to our clients that want to do deep healing and growth work with themselves.

Holly is a multi-passionate creative entrepreneur who wants to elevate the world through the power of words and connection. She graduated from Michigan State University with a degree in broadcast journalism and has a specialization in Positive Psychology from the University of Pennsylvania. She has completed a series of advanced coaching and leadership certifications as well as a KRI-accredited Kundalini Yoga certification. Her mission is to help others master their desires through inner-connection, outer-clarity and daily consistency.

On top of coaching, Holly is a writer whose work has been featured on popular online publications like the Huffington Post, Thrive Global and Thought Catalog. She authors a weekly Q&A Lifestyle Column titled “Hey Holl.” Holly also regularly posts tips and inspiration on Instagram @hey.holl.

I am delighted to have Holly today on the show, where we talk about her personal story of driving towards being a magazine writer, to writing towards her gifts of the soul and self-help, connecting with the angels and using other spiritual tools (even if you are a skeptic), the practice of working out your intuitive muscles, and how to have fun getting to know yourself and shift your life.

Enjoy!

 

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Sponsorship Message

This episode is brought to you by the Soul Body Women’s Retreat that will adventure in October 2018.

The Soul Body Women’s Retreat is a spiritual and healing retreat inspired to support connecting Soul and Body, the elements of Earth and Sky within, Feminine and Masculine, and all of the opposing energies within. It is a sacred intensive of meditations, yoga, family constellations, somatic healing, and soul work to deeply heal stuckness, beliefs, or ancestral bonds and embody freedom and specific personal intentions.

For this and future retreats, you can find out more information at candicewu.com/retreats. Your support in sharing or joining a retreat helps me make more healing albums, content, and create more podcast episodes. I am grateful for your support!

 

Show Notes & Timestamps

00:00 Introduction to Holly Mihelic

02:40 Sponsored Message: Soul Body Women’s Retreat

03:43 Getting to Know Holly

04:53 Spring and Change

07:49 Who Is Holly and What Does She Do?

09:50 What Happens When You Are in Flow

12:05 The Most Challenging “@Hey Holl” Question

12:38 Heartbreak, Anything to Help?

13:51 Heartbreak at 18: What Got Holly Deeper Into Self Help

16:26 Addressing Deep Hurt

17:17 Mental Health Hacking Controversy

18:07 The Pressure to Be Happy

20:58 Being Limited by Someone Else’s Judgment + Beliefs

21:56 Walking into Soul Space

22:10 A Writing Assignment That Changed Everything

23:24 A Question that Gets You Towards Your Purpose

25:22 What Feeds Candice’s & Holly’s Soul?

26:30 How the External World Can Shape What You Think You Like | Disregarding What You Truly Want

28:18 Working With Divine Energy and the Secret to Angels’ Help

29:49 Drawing the Card of Archangel Gabriel

31:49 Using a Spiritual Cell Phone

32:26 Does It Matter if You Don't Know About the Angels?

33:14 How Holly Started Divine Communication

36:33 Diving Into Meta-Physical

37:10 Revisiting That Hey Holl Question

39:09 The Difference Between Intuition and Your Mind Making Stuff Up

40:02 Opening Up the Channels to Energy

41:02 Developing Your Gift (Picasso vs Stick Figures)

41:43 How to Develop Your Intuition

42:21 What You Eat Matters

42:49 Being Connected via Media & The Impact of Consumption

43:41 Going Back to a Flip Phone

44:43 Phone Addiction, the Modern Day Zombie Apocalypse

46:40 Candice’s Twisted Ankle / What Can We Do About Our Dis-Ease?

47:51 We Probably All Have a Form of Phone Addiction

48:29 Experiment: You Are in an Episode of “Friends” for a Week

51:13 Are We Allowed to Have Pagers?

51:30 Being Available Only Certain Times of the Day on the Other Side of the World

52:13 Hey You: Holly’s Book!

55:45 Audience Gift

58:08 Where to Find Holly

59:01 Holly’s Favorite Quote

59:13 Quote by Glennon Doyle Melton: "People Who Need Help Sometimes Look Like People Like That Don't Need Help..."

60:58 Outro

Everything feels like it is dismantling; falling apart. Parts of me feel that they are disintegrating, lost, shattered, untethered.

  • I don’t know who I am anymore.
  • Why do I exist and what am I here for?
  • What is the meaning of life - of everything?
  • I don’t know why I feel sad and fearful.
  • Reality feels like it is blowing apart.

These are some of the thoughts and feelings I’ve had in the last few weeks as I’ve been on a spiritual roller coaster. At times I have felt I have been in spiritual or existential crisis, and other times it’s been more like spiritual flu.

Luckily, I am aware that these are just parts of me and more grounded inner parts of me are able to stay calm.

The soul is speaking or screaming loudly, ready to share its story and lesson for us when we have intense emotional and physical symptoms. The chance to experience profound healing and expansion, energy and a return to our truth is waiting to be reclaimed within an existential and spiritual crisis.

But it can be terrifying and overwhelming! Especially if you’re not sure what’s happening. Some of the feelings one can have related to archetypal, ancestral, past life, or collective unconscious material that may have no words to describe.

In this week’s episode of the Embody Podcast, I share my personal and present experience of spiritual flu and crisis, what has helped me through it, and what might be helpful if you or someone you know is experiencing emotional intensity, physical symptoms/illness, or other experiences that may be hard to give a name or find the cause of.

Enjoy!

~Candice

 

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Show Notes

 

00:47 Sponsored by the Sound Sleep Alchemy Album by Yours Truly

01:11 Intro of the Episode / Setting the Stage

02:15 “Even Monkeys Fall Out of Trees” Quote / is Candice Actually Human?

03:11 Wandering and Exploring as a Healing Act

03:37 Sharing a Real Human Experience

03:52 When I Think of Vulnerability

04:04 Brené Brown’s Definition of Vulnerability

04:17 Exploring Spiritual Flu

04:29 Being Playful and Open While Healing

05:04 Why I Am Sharing This Today

06:05 We Are All Human: On Being Messy and Unpolished

06:24 My Experience Going From Box to Box

07:12 So What Have I Been Going Through?

07:35 Dismantling and Existential Questions Pouring Out of Me

08:08 How It All Started

08:29 Handling Pain in the Body - to Go or Not to Go to the Doctor?

09:56 the Feminine Archetype and Pain Carried by Women

10:40 Body Shame

10:56 Personal, Ancestral & Archetypal Wounding

12:17 Unconscious Energies - Not Everything Can Be Named or Makes Sense in Spiritual Crisis

12:31 Feeling Unanchored

13:00 Underneath the Physical Pain

14:14 How Spiritual and Emotional Work Was Shifting the Body Symptoms

15:33 a Wildfire in My Body.

15:56 Riding the Wave of the Feelings and Symptoms

16:42 in Better Spirits

17:29 Grateful for Past Learning 🙈

18:31 Feeling Grounded, Knowing Myself, and Feeling the Intensity

19:07 Pendulation

19:23 Shout Out to Birthday Podcast Episode

19:53 Not Attaching the Experience to My Identity

20:41 Opening Up Internally - Trauma and Pleasure Can Surface

21:07 a Nervous System Perspective of Crisis

21:36 Helpful Practice of Voice Dialogue

22:53 Shifting Gears and How I Almost Saw It All Coming for Myself

24:23 What Do I Mean by Spiritual?

25:24 Spiritual Crisis, Sickness, Flu, and Everyday Experiences - a Spectrum on the Lens of Spirituality

26:19 the Spiritual is the Most Subtle Level

26:53 Layers of the Physiology - Koshas in Yoga

27:56 Belief Sets We Hold

28:21 Healing at the Root - the Most Powerful Angle

29:30 More About Existential & Spiritual Crisis

29:34 Transpersonal Psychology and Dr. Stanislov and Dr. Christina Grof

30:31 Symptoms You Can Experience in an Existential Crisis

31:23 Some Triggers of Spiritual Crisis

32:25 on the Other Side of Crisis (Big S-Self and Small S-Self)

34:17 Mention of Marlyse Carroll (Author of Am I Going Mad?)

35:36 Cultural Misunderstandings Around the Transpersonal | Creating Ease and Understanding Around Spiritual Crisis

37:04 Quote by Dr. Carl Jung - “...Attempt of the Mind to Find Wholeness”

37:39 Spiritual Madness

38:02 "What is Psychosis"?

38:34 Self - Care and Getting Through Spiritual Crisis | What I’ve Been Doing | What You Can Do

40:56 Calling Upon Angels and Spirit Guides

43:22 Voice Dialoging - Talking to Parts That Are Screaming

44:18 Some Other Ideas for You in a Crisis

46:44 Outro

In this episode, I share an intimate and enriching conversation with a dear friend, Rachael Huttner, who is Thai Body Worker and Reiki Practitioner.

Rachael and I talk about how basketball inspired her Thai Body Work, the importance of tribe and teamwork, how to be in touch with synchronicity, and nurturing and valuing intuition and spirit guides.

Rachael’s bodywork practice draws from her studies in Reiki, Thai Bodywork, Trigger Point Therapy, Chinese Medicine and her latest introduction to Shamanic studies. Two components ultimately lay the foundation for the effectiveness of these modalities: making energy and spiritual work approachable to everyone, and creating a collaborative environment. She considers the best teachers and practitioners to be the ones that you need to see less and less as time goes on because they give you the tools needed to draw from your own inner knowledge for health and well-being.

Having spent over a decade recovering from a surgery and back injury in her teens and 20s, Rachael discovered that lasting healing truly begins once you address the emotional, mental, and spiritual components. Rachael saw countless doctors and specialists and became very frustrated with the brief visits, multiple diagnoses, and feeling of helplessness over the decline in her quality of well-being. Thankfully, she was young and stubborn at the time and promised herself that she would find a way to heal that was less confusing and invasive. This desire carried her to a community acupuncture clinic in her late 20s. There, she felt deep compassion from her practitioner, she felt heard and was truly supported for the first time on her quest towards a pain-free life. What an empowering approach! This was the turning point in Rachael’s journey of healing.

Rachael continued to receive care from some holistic practitioners, and each contributed in their own way towards lasting healing and full recovery (in a mere two years). The lessons she learned from this journey have left their imprint on Rachael’s vision for her bodywork sessions. She attunes herself to her client’s goals and works with the relevant information that presents itself during a session. She also encourages her clients to listen to sensations and emotions following a session, as this not only prolongs the benefits of bodywork and Reiki but also empowers them to develop true autonomy over their bodies and well-being.

Rachael is sincerely grateful to everyone that helped her as she healed and embarked on this mission to have her own bodywork practice. Compassion, patience, and encouragement were the special ingredients expressed by loved ones. Rachael carries this support in her heart each day with the sincere wish to share these gifts with others.

 

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Sound Sleep Alchemy Album

Guided Healing, Meditations, and Resources for Sleep Care

Quality Sleep is so important. It can make all the difference in daily life, self fulfillment, well - being, work, and relationships to have good rest each night.

This is why I have created the Sound Sleep Alchemy Album. This Album of resources, meditations, and self-exploration was born from inspiration of my own, clients', friends', colleagues', and family's struggles with stressful or restless sleep, insomnia, waking up in the middle of the night, night terrors and nightmares, and more, as simple sleep hygiene tips did not always work. In my own experiences of terrible insomnia, I needed to go deeper to get to deep sleep; to the root. I am happy to share that I now have restful sleep and when I don't, I have ways to support myself.

Enjoy this culmination of many ancient and modern traditions including Somatic Experiencing, yoga tantra, Ayurveda, spiritual and energetic practices, scientifically-informed and embodied healing techniques, Chinese Medicine, and Family & Systemic Constellations.

Buy the Album @ candicewu.com/soundsleep

 

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Show Notes & Timestamps

0:07 Birth of the Album

1:05 Culmination of Different Practices

1:29 What's Included for You

1:54 The Resource Guide

2:21 Levels of Your Being

2:57 Purpose of the Meditations

3:04 Down to Earth Body Scan

3:30 Organic Breathing

3:58 Resourcing Safety, Love, and Peace

4:38 Southing Self Touch and Body Care

5:27 Digesting the Day

6:08 Taking Internal Inventory

6:50 Yoga Nidra / Yogic Sleep

7:59 A Dose of Moonlight

8:36 Rest Recovery & Middle of the Night Release

9:42 Loving Kindness Meditation

10:12 Illuminating Your Ancestral Sleep Story

11:30 Additionally Also Includes

11:44 Marma Points

12:42 Journal Exploratories With Questions

13:25 Letting Die What Is Decaying

13:40 Yoga Poses

14:01 What This Album Is Meant to Give You

14:52 Outro

Sound Sleep Alchemy Album

Guided Healing, Meditations, and Resources for Sleep Care

This is a sample meditation included in the Sound Sleep Alchemy Album for better sleep. For more information on this album, please have a look at the site linked below. There you will find more samples as well as a podcast episode about what's included in the whole album.

candicewu.com/soundsleep

Sound Sleep Alchemy Album

Guided Healing, Meditations, and Resources for Sleep Care

This is a sample meditation included in the Sound Sleep Alchemy Album for better sleep. For more information on this album, please have a look at the site linked below. There you will find more samples as well as a podcast episode about what's included in the whole album.

candicewu.com/soundsleep

To live a truer and more congruent life, one that allows your soul to thrive and be nourished, you might become more aware of the ways you betray or turn against yourself. Go deeper into the complexities of what purpose this serves and how it may be connected to the loyalties to loved ones or past ways of being. Explore how you can shift out of it with awareness and embodiment. 

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Show Notes & Timestamps

0:00 Intro and Welcome From Bali

0:53 the Theme of Self-Betrayal

1:01 Last Week’s Episode - Being You

1:12 Synonyms of Betrayal

1:53 Where Does Self - Betrayal Root?

2:47 What Are the Parts of You That You Betray?

3:03 Examples of Self- Betrayal in Your Life

3:56 Clues for Where There Is Self - Betrayal

4:07 Another Layer : Lying to Yourself / Deception

4:48 Let Go of Criticism

5:06 What Is the Purpose Behind Turning Against Some Parts of Yourself?

5:14 Example in a Monogamous Relationship

6:48 Subtle Ways of Self - Betrayal

7:17 Protecting Yourself by Protecting Others

7:37 Energy and Power That May Be Scary

7:55 Why You Choose to Turn Against Aspects, Questions to Ask Yourself

8:27 Family Constellations: Hidden Loyalties

9:14 Bonds to Those Who May Be Silenced

9:36 How We Inherit Pain and Trauma

10:53 a Way We Learn to Belong (As Children)

11:48 Expressing Yourself and Reactions From Others

12:34 Questions of Exploration About Where You Have Turned Against Yourself

13:44 Taking Responsibility

14:11 Do You Overbook Your Calendar?

15:00 Shifting Out of Self - Betrayal With Embodiment

16:04 Who You Have Been Does Not Define Who You Can Be | Release Berating Your Past Self.

17:09 Anäis Nin Quote and Suggestions

18:21 Outro